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Thursday, October 24, 2013

Argued and it ended up talking about going to our own separate ways. Frankly speaking I don't like it if we talked about this matter. Before I elaborate more, I shall explain everything why I was mad yesterday. It all began like this. I know it was my first time I dyed my hair because I used to have virgin hair and you were used seeing me in black hair. Me too. I don't mind you teasing me about my new hair but you kept on being sarcastic all the way since we met. Tell me, will you like it if I make a big fuss about something that you're uncomfortable with? Will you get annoyed if I always say "Besok aku nyer turn dye uh." It's not that I don't like it, I felt that was quite cute of you to tease me. I decided to just kept mum about it because I didn't want to make things worse, I didn't want to spoil your day until you showed me your photo taken in the afternoon. I'm abit sensitive when it comes to Malay girls, I really do. But once you showed me that photo, I became mad because you already annoyed me and I saw that photo but I still didn't want to say anything because I know whatever that comes out from my mouth will not be positive words if I talked about it. It was until we alighted from the bus and once again, you started being sarcastic because I asked if my hair colour was too obvious. You continued and I cant take it anymore and so I let out my anger saying bad things about your classmates which of course I didn't mean it at all. To be honest it was just to make you feel angry and I am aware it was super rude of me to say those kind of remarks about them. I know that was too much but i really cant help it anymore to the extent we argued. Whatever i said yesterday, i hope you will not take it seriously because i tend to say things which i don't mean to say if i'm mad. Don't worry, i will apologise to them face-to-face saying i'm sorry for criticising them eventhough they were innocent. I will go to college west to meet them and settle this matter asap. As for you, take your time to cool down okay... I know you're still mad at me cause you thought history will repeat itself just like what happened between me and Nat, but honestly i don't have any personal issues with anyone. Just lepaskan geram so that i'll feel satisfied. As long i still love you, i will do anything even if it takes for me to get their numbers and apologise to them. I don't want to lose you, i really don't wish to. I hope our relationship wont ends here because of this.. I wont run away from my mistakes instead I will clean up the mess I've created.

Eppachooluv
9:58 PM