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Monday, April 4, 2016

I should be sleeping at this hour since I have work tomorrow, but I cant. It's 0317 hrs now. It's only been 2 hours after I sent you off but I've already miss you so badly. These feelings can never be described, no matter how good my English is. I've never been this far from you for 3 weeks. Sounds fast but it definitely isn't for me. I wanted to cry so badly once we reached at the departure hall but I managed to hold back my tears as I know it'll make things worse but deep down I feel so weak. I couldn't think straight because I felt like asking you to come back and never go to Brunei. Actually I wanted to text you once I reached home but unfortunately I had problems with Whatsapp. Remember when I switched phone because my phone's battery was flat? I need to configure some things before I can use it again. That itself took some time and I swear it was frustrating because I wanted to text u so badly to inform you that I got back home safely even though you had already boarded the plane. Sayang, I may look calm on the outside but no one will ever know how I am feeling right now not being able to see and contact you for 3 freaking weeks. I just hope they'll let you call your loved ones once you've reach there. 14 hours of travelling time. Make full use of your time to rest okay. I don't know what's on your mind right now because I really feel so weak. I need you by my side, or at least to be in Singapore. I'm still not ready for all of this, but I have to tell myself I must be strong for you. Janji dengan I, you akan jaga diri dekat sana baik-baik. Please, don't forget to recite prayers in everything you do. A foreign country so must apply all safety procedures. I cant bear seeing you entering that departure hall, but if I don't, I will never be ready. Left with around 45 minutes before you touched down and continue the rest of the journey in the bus. Since we cant rewind back time, I promise you, I will take good care of myself. I'll always pray for your safety over there. I doakan u akan selamat sampai dan kembali dekat Singapore nanti. Sorry if I was quiet today, like I said I couldn't think straight because I can't stop thinking about your flight. Thank you for letting me send you off today. This is the first time ever I sent you off to the airport. Hope you'll have a good rest before your training starts. Have a safe flight my dear. Iloveyousomuch sayang, I swear. Imissyoutoomuch. Jaga diri you sayang. :-(

Eppachooluv
3:39 AM