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Sunday, December 8, 2013

To have someone right there by your side whenever you need him is more than enough to prove that that person cares about you when you're at your worst. I'm not trying to say that he doesnt care about me but somehow from what i saw and observed just now i felt that i was a burden to him at that point of time. Although i was having stomach cramps or whatever you call it so much that it hurts alot and you couldn't walk properly and plus you had to bend your body and slouch. Coincidentally this happened right after i didnt majok anymore. We could actually took the bus but i decided not to as i need to save my ezlink value. I am so thankful as he sanggup accompany me all the way home but i knew that eventhough he was walking at the same pace as me he wasnt that happy too. The way he talked to me, his gestures and his actions. It was as if he was forced to walk with me. If you're reading this (idk when but one day if you are reading this you need to know something that i didnt tell you at all before this) then its good for you. You asked me why i didnt take the shortcut but instead we took the longer way. Reason is because there are many people at those busstops. When people saw two people walking together they will automatically know that we're a couple. You were walking in front and i was at the back slouching due to the pain and of course people will look at us. It may be nothing to you but trust me, it is to me. I dont want people to say anything negative about you when they see us. I mintak maaf sebab i susahkan u tadi. I'm not sure if its true but you macam malas nak layan. I'm just assuming, i'm not accusing you. I just felt that way. Not that i didnt want to accompany you at the busstop just now but i didnt want to make you angry especially when you sounded so annoyed when you asked me to go home from there. I'm really sorry for causing all this and had to trouble you. On the other hand i am also thankful and so grateful to you. I dont know how to repay your kindness sayang. But just a lil' bit of advice, all i want is for you to show me that you love and care about me. I dont need wealth just to make me happy. My definition of being happy is when you're there for me whenever i need you in the future thats all.

Eppachooluv
11:59 PM