Sunday, January 3, 2016
Hasrul here. Hi Love! hope you're reading this.
Its been a long time since I last blogged. I'm not really familiar with the new blogger layout but nevermind, I'll explore slowly. So .. within a year and so many things has happened. From ite to ns life. From my depression period transitioned to perhaps my uplifting period ... hopefully? May all this pleasant things that I'm seeing and experiencing be the small light at the end of the tunnel, at least for a start so that In Shaa Allah I could use this as a source for motivation to take a step closer to my goals day by day.
So, pejam celik pejam celik dah 2016. 2015 had been a rough year for me. In fact, it has been a roller coaster ride. I thought being unable to secure a spot in Poly was the worst thing that happened to me until my NS letter came. Hahah! Poor me got to get myself ready to enlist within 1 month. Enlisted, gedebak gedebuk from PTP to BMT to GAIT and BOOOOOM .. here I stand as an officially converted Guardsman Trooper from Alpha Coy. RAWDY WARRIOR! I won't elaborate in detail about what I went thru in camp cos what do you people know about hustle anyway? Pfft. Haha. Oh but uh.. I managed to achieve Best Section Award for GAIT. Earned this badboy.
They say when one door closes, another one opens. I thought I would depress myself to death with personal issues I left back at home. Endless question surrounding me about how I was even gonna get thru life. To cut long story short, NS was indeed a blessing in disguise. Ever since I enlisted, my health improved, I lost weight, gained some muscles, got fitter, felt more secure of my surroundings socially, able to open up and be flexible to people around me easier, my depression and overthinking disorder is progressively fading and lastly only God knows how much I prayed for this; I see my dad getting physically healthier alhamdulillah. NS has helped me in a lot of ways. It actually provided me an environment to think thoroughly about the paths I would be taking after ORD to achieve my goals without constantly indulging myself in paranoia every single day. Fuck that feeling man. I suffered waaay to much paranoia. I. HATE. PARANOIA. SO. MUCH.
Its been a long time since I last blogged. I'm not really familiar with the new blogger layout but nevermind, I'll explore slowly. So .. within a year and so many things has happened. From ite to ns life. From my depression period transitioned to perhaps my uplifting period ... hopefully? May all this pleasant things that I'm seeing and experiencing be the small light at the end of the tunnel, at least for a start so that In Shaa Allah I could use this as a source for motivation to take a step closer to my goals day by day.
So, pejam celik pejam celik dah 2016. 2015 had been a rough year for me. In fact, it has been a roller coaster ride. I thought being unable to secure a spot in Poly was the worst thing that happened to me until my NS letter came. Hahah! Poor me got to get myself ready to enlist within 1 month. Enlisted, gedebak gedebuk from PTP to BMT to GAIT and BOOOOOM .. here I stand as an officially converted Guardsman Trooper from Alpha Coy. RAWDY WARRIOR! I won't elaborate in detail about what I went thru in camp cos what do you people know about hustle anyway? Pfft. Haha. Oh but uh.. I managed to achieve Best Section Award for GAIT. Earned this badboy.
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| The name's there. The legacy's written. So whatcha gon' do bout that mafackas? |
NS aside.
Love. 8 years. With no one else but you. I love you so much. You've been way too strong and I can't help but to admire your strength and willingness. You do know that you're the only girl in my heart right? Who could compare to you after all that you've done for me; breaking one by one the layers of my ego and healing my damaged soul allowing me to finally open up my true self to someone whom I can fully trust. Every time I book out, the first thing on my mind would be you. Yes, you, my pillar of hope. Thanks for spending most of your time with me during my block leave. I really enjoyed my time with you. I guess I've become more attached to you now. I hope I've made you feel happy for this whole week. My happiness is your happiness. I know this is just a short post but this means a lot to me. Sayang, please take care of yourself when I'm in camp. Please know that you are beautiful, probably the most beautiful woman in my eyes.
Iloveyou.
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| Please .. no more bedak or makeup. I love your natural beauty sayang. Nk FLYYY tak? |
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